Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Last Day to spend in Oregon . . .

Well, tomorrow I fly out from Oregon back to my little mountain town in my little mountain cove. While I miss my mountains, I am going to have a hard time leaving - harder this time than last time because Norah Kathryn has responded to me with recognition and hugs and smiles -before she was so little she didn't know who I was; now she does *sob*.

 This morning, as has been for most every morning for the last 2 weeks, I've gone into little Norah Kathryn's room and she's smiled at me and reached for me to pick her up. This morning I just grabbed her up and hugged her so tight - because this is it. This is the last full day. She'll probably still be sleeping when I arise and leave early tomorrow morning to fly out. Trying not to cry here...*wahhhhh*

I'll miss my son, too, and my daughter in law. My family. This is sucky.

what an imp!
My home and roots and 'soulness' to use a cliched word is in the Appalachian area, in the Smoky Mountains, in Haywood County, in Maggie Valley, but, my heart and wants are also with my little family here. It's a crappy thing to have to be separated from those you love.

I'm quickly writing this, so if it is full of errors - pardon, but, I'm keeping one ear out for lil Boop's waking sounds.

All morning I've felt this "offness" - this sadness.

I've done some thinking, too, while here. While here, many times I've not been able to be online, or just not bothered to log on, and just as when I visited here last time, nothing 'bad' happened - nothing went kablooey - no one threw rotten eggs at me for not being around or for not being able to visit so much or to be slow in answering emails, yada yada yada . . . so, when I get home, I'm altering how I do my online status. Spending less time on social networking and more on my little log house, on GMR, on ...um, WRITING my BOOKS *laughing* Yeah. I've also thought about priorities, and how in the big mess of life and love and happiness, how my books do is really quite small. I'm happy for the success I've had and love it when people enjoy my books, and sure, I like to know they are doing well, but, this here, my little family, has put things into a bigger perspective.....yes.

I have some thoughts I hope to set down later  - on families, young families. How hard it can be, but how joyful and wonderful, too.

Oh, and before I forget - somewhere along the way I said I'd have someone as a guest poster who has a book coming out - I'm going to put that up here sometime in the next few days while I'm getting myself settled in and home and unpacking and etc etc etc! I don't do guest posts often, but I do like helping out other writers.

Later - Almost time for my dear one to wake from her morning nap ..............

*sob*

19 comments:

Jan O'Hara (Tartitude) said...

You know, I'm so glad I "met" you, because I've been doing some similar soul-searching. It's good to be replaceable, finite; it leaves more room for the spaces that matter.

Wishing you a few last, sweet cuddles and the ability to return soon.

Diane said...

That sweetness! So glad you got to visit, so sad that you have to leave.... :O)

Sandra Leigh said...

I know I tweeted that you should be sure to tell us all about it, but that's just greedy. Having just come back from a visit with my faraway daughter, I know how you are feeling, and I hope a cyberhug will be of at least a little help. The most important thing we can do in our lives is to love each other. Everything else should take a back seat. ((((Kat))))

Lori said...

I know all too well how you are feeling...how hard it is to walk away from these people, big and small that hold your heart...each and every time I have to say goodbye to one of mine, it feels like my heart is being ripped out of me. My last day with them is spent trying to enjoy every second yet fighting back tears at the knowing this is it..so right now I send you big cyber hugs...(((((Kathryn)))))

May your last moments with them be precious...may your time away from them be short. XX

jeannette said...

In grandparenthood, one begins to see life from a very different angle, isn't it? Relationships become more and more important...and our career, success, etc. finally gets the place it should have had all along, LOL!

Anita said...

Just wanted to pop in to say *hugs* May your remaining time be as wonderfully rich and thoughtfully remembered as anytime before.

ficwriter said...

Time for your son, daugther-in-law, and lil boob to move to the cove. My heart aches with missing my youngest son who is living in London, but your post reminds me to count my blessings that my two grandchildren live about three miles from my house.

lakeviewer said...

So glad you enjoyed your visit. Life never gives us all that we want or need. The choices sometimes are unbearably hard.

Marisa Birns said...

Yes, can imagine how hard it is to leave your beloved little family tomorrow. Your little dear one is just so precious!

Understand what you mean about spending less time on social networking. It certainly is a great place - I've "met" so many wonderful people, including you - but it also can take a whole lot of time away from the things that need to be done, loved, achieved.

Anyway, safe trip home, Kat!

Jessica Nelson said...

Oooooh, I'm sorry you have to leave your sweet granddaughter. :-( That's hard.

I'm doing a review, a long, long overdue review, on Tender Graces tomorrow. :-) I'll e-mail you too.

Hope you settle in okay!

Small Footprints said...

You know ... you need Skype. It's not being there but at least you all would get to see and talk to each other. We use it with far-away family members ... the visual adds a lot!

Sounds like you had a great time!

Titus said...

Feeling for you! Chin up, Grandma's the best job in the world but remember, you've got years of it to go. Loads of growing to do, for everybody, as well.

Walker said...

So they finally threw you out did they?
What did you expect?
It’s hard with the kid crawling around the house but the big kid racing her all over the place was a lot to handle I am sure.

As we get wrapped up with new things in our lives we forget time is still the same and try to cram in all in.
Sometimes you have to trim the fat to find time to crawl on the floor like a big kid and I know you were crawling all over it.

Ruby Wiseman said...

I understand the sweet pain of the missing of loved ones. My children with my grandchildren live many, many miles away and the memory of our latest visit is imprinted upon my heart. (((Kat))

Kristi said...

On no! I'm no good at good-byes either. Boo! ;-)

It's funny how this social networking can get out of hand so easily...it's so addictive and easy to lose sight of the more important things, you know, like life. ;-)

Gaston Studio said...

Know how you feel because I currently live 8 hours from my grandchildren. And yes, social networking can really become addictive, that's why I only post weekly for the past several months and only "visit" when I really have the time.

Caryn said...

She is so adorable! I can see why you're having trouble leaving, even if you do miss your home. She's lucky to get to know you, though, despite your being so far away.

Eryl said...

Imagine having you as a granny, she is the luckiest, as well as the cutest, little girl in the world. And next time you visit she'll remember you and squeak with delight when she sees you. That's not going to make it any easier to leave, I know, but if you don't leave you won't have the joy of a reunion.

I don't blame you for cutting down on the social networking thing, it does eat time. I now only make a post if I feel I have the head-space to get involved with it properly which includes visiting the kind people who still make time, however seldom, to visit me.

Mimi said...

It's hard being separated from family, and the leaving is the hardest part.
Hope you're settling back home ok.
I agree with previous comments re social networking, but at least the blogging community is very understanding and accepts everyone as they are. Or at least, that has been my experience of it.