Wednesday, March 4, 2009

Bang Bang goes the drums...in my head....

This photo is of a hornet's nest up in the tree in my cove on my mountain. I almost cry to look at it - so, I guess my emotions and all are on the surface, since I'm not a cryer - I'm an old toughie - really, ask Angie Gumbo Writer...oh, she'll say I'm not tough at all. Perhaps I have an outer shell and a soft noughaty center, teehee. But, I so miss the quiet of my mountain. The creek, the hawk, Boo Boo the raccoon, the tiny red squirrels, my dog, and I guess I miss Good Man Roger, too (laughing). We see this hornet's nest on our mountain walk every morning.

Oh, my friends! I keep thinking about my book - the Tender Graces book with Virginia Kate and how close it is to the time she comes out! It sends my stomach to fluttering. Sometimes I place worries on myself: what if it doesn't sell many copies and I feel "failure" as an author? what if I get a bad review (everyone must, I suppose!). What if only four people buy my book and three of those are me and the other one is my mom? *laugh* - then I calm myself by reminding myself that no matter what happens, I will have written an entire book with beautiful characters and that book will have been printed and have a cover and I can hold it in my hands and smell the pages, see and read and feel my Virginia Kate come alive! Now, that in itself is an accomplishment, right, my good friends?

The surgery has been delayed because of a Snafu with the hospital or doctor or something, and that just makes us all the more stressed. Each day someone has to stay in a hospital bed makes them weaker! Although, he has been doing quite well, under the circumstances. But, I've told Frank how people all over the world were wishing him well and sending thoughts and vibes and prayers and all manner of good things his way. He was very pleased, as was my mom; and both said, "Thank you so very much."

My head is pounding - it's been forever since I've had a headache, and especially one that takes over my head and will not let go since yesterday. I imagine this little creature wrapped around my brain - sort of like that creature on Twightlight Zone that was destroying the plane -pounding away, being a little snit about it all!

I know Tender Graces is on track, but there's something about being away from home and the schedule that has me all worried and discombobulated - as if I'm missing something I need to be doing! It will be ready to go next month! And, I've not had time to work on the second one--but I will. I know right now the headache monster, worry over Frank, and being away from home and off my eating and working schedule has me feeling out of sorts. Oh, stop whining, Kat! Geez....pah! There, now I feel my old toughie self emerge...ha!

Perhaps while it's a quiet morning this morning, before I head to Dallas to the hospital, I can visit you wonderful people. Sometimes I think about all your faces and I smile...you don't know (or perhaps you do!) how much it means to me to read your comments - thank you - and yes, I am reading each and everyone, even when I don't have time to come visit. I cooked yesterday for mom and whomever may be coming in town or whatever. And I made her kitchen sparkle and vacuumed and the like -- it's a woman thing; you know, you walk into your house and everything is sparkling and fresh smelling and clean and it just makes you feel better.

We are hoping the surgery will be at least by tomorrow. I'll be back with an update.

PS - I was visiting everyone and suddenly every time I go to a blog, the screen flits all over the place and then goes blank! ?? I have no idea what that is - so, if you see me on another blog and not on yours, that's why - will try again later!

19 comments:

jinksy said...

I'll send you som lavender Aura Soma vibes for the headache, as I can't send the real thing. It's wonderful stuff, if you can get hold of it, by the way.

Terri Tiffany said...

I didn't realize all this was going on in your life right now! I don't know all the circumstances but know that right now, I'm praying that God gives you that peace back.

Sharla said...

Take a deep breath, girl, and absorb that Texas essence. Everything is bigger in Texas and that includes peace. Not that Dallas is all that peaceful, it's kinda crazy, but if you close your eyes real tight, you can pretend you're in a smaller town! :) And know that there will be one more sale guaranteed...cuz I'm buyin' it!!!!

Barbara said...

Don't worry about selling books...I'll buy at least four!!! The video and excerpt are wonderful. I can hardly wait until it's released.

Just do what you need to do with your family and don't worry another minute about your book.

Blessings, Barbara

Michelle H. said...

You have my good wishes that everything will work out for both the book and the surgery. Keep the chin up!

Michelle said...

It sounds like everything is perfectly normal for a stress filled time in your life Kat. Having been through a few of these myself lately I can relate to how you feel. One day soon you will be back on your mountain, breathing a sigh of relief and yet very glad you went.
Promise...xxx

Debbie said...

I hate to hear the surgery has been postponed. Being in the hospital is the pits.
And I am excited about the book too!!

Jill of All Trades said...

Hang in there.

blueviolet said...

Everything with the book will come along just fine. I'm pretty sure it will sell more than 4 copies though, lol. No matter what, just being published is further along than most people will ever get.

I'm still wishing positive vibes and prayers for Frank. Hang in there. You'll see that old hornet's nest before long.

Jenn Johansson said...

I'm sure your book will be smashing. Just reading the excerpts pulls me into another world. Still sending the good vibes to Frank and Mom, and hugs to you :) Hope your headache goes away soon.

Hippy Witch said...

There is nothing more special than coming home to a sparkling house, it is a girly thing, I will buy your book when it gets released here in Australia. Blessings to you and your family Kat. I am sending love and light to Frank.

DebraLSchubert said...

Kat, Whenever we women are not in our "usual" space (unless we're vacationing in St. Lucia or some other fantastic place)we're out of sorts. Sprinkle in health concerns and excitement/nervousness about YOUR AMAZING BOOK COMING OUT NEXT MONTH WHICH I, TOO, WILL BE BUYING, and it's no surprise that you've got a killer headache. Close your eyes, take some deep, cleansing, yoga breaths, walk outside, and do what you're best at: be grateful. Love to you and yours, Debbie

Sandra Leigh said...

Aw, Kat. I do wish I could blow your headache away. A headache makes everything harder to bear. I'm sending you a virtual Lomi Lomi massage.

Angie Ledbetter said...

Oh, my poor friend. Yeah, you're a Tootsie Roll Pop for sure. :)

Go away ugly little Twilight Zone zombie on the plane wing scaring the poop out of John Lithgow. LOL

Seriously, miss ya and know how it feels when life's monkey wrenches make you all out of sorts. Prayers and hugs flying to ya!

Nannette Croce said...

Well, if everyone here buys one, that's already more than four. Honestly, though, these days you can't think in terms of sales. Just getting it published is something most writers don't ever achieve. I bet you will receive one or two bad reviews too. That's part of putting yourself out there, but, hey, you survived rejection, right? Just close your eyes and move on.

colbymarshall said...

Everything will be fine...no worries! *hugs!*

Jen said...

I will be buying one too!!! at least one... so that is lots already!

Sending more healing to Frank, hopefully everything will roll more smoothly soon.

Jen
xoxo

The Unbreakable Child said...

Deep breaths, Kat, gal!! It'll be fine, it will!

I just got home too and I want you know; I carried your rock from your creek into airports, into Manhatten, on the Morning Show and I'm holdn' it now sayn a prayer for you and all yours. I have no clue why it brings me comfort, but the minute I picked it up and rubbed its smooth--it's become apart of me.

hugs and deep breaths

katrinastonoff said...

Make that five people ... plus everyone else here. I'll definitely be buying it!